Mine is the Fear of Criticism and I am only 40% up it, but this morning I choose to run up that physical hill to show myself that I can conquer my fears.
That hill was steep, slippery, long and much harder then running on a flat surface. It was raining, I had already run 10 miles and there was no one insight to see if I took the hill or ran around it. But instead of shrinking back and saying "another day" to that hill I raced up it.
My struggle is internal, its deep and for the longest time my fears kept me from action. They kept me from hoping. They kept me from dreaming.
My hill seemed like a mountain that I could not get traction going up. It has taken me almost 4 years to get 40% up that hill. It started with my physical health change, then moved into mental health, marital health and most recently personal development.
I can feel momentum and strength building and I hope the next 60% happens a lot quicker, but I promise I will summit my hill. I will live the life I know I can. I will dream BIG dreams, live LIFE larger then I have before and help TRANSFORM people so they can summit their own hills.
The next area of my life that needs transformation is becoming confident why God created me and what he is asking me to do with my life. That's not an easy question for someone like myself who has changed careers every few years. I wanted to be an astronaut in middle school, then marine biologist in high school, then youth ministry/video production expert in college, then mental health counselor in grad school, then a financial steward and now leader who transforms lives of people starting with their physical health. I want people to experience the change I have seen in my own life because I believe climbing our own personal hills is better then always fearing them.
What is different now is that this whole journey for me as a leader has been directly influenced by the supernatural powers of God. Never before have I sensed His calling in my life like this. Everything before was my idea of what would be fun. This area is the most scary because I have to battle my own fears on a daily basis.
You can watch over the coming months and years my story of hill climbing unveil until I summit, but I will promise you right now...I am not stopping. I am not stopping inviting others into their own transform story. I will not stop fighting for people to have bodies that are healthy, strong and that they feel confident about because no one can climb their internal hill without a healthy body.
What's your hill? What is holding you back from having a life you are excited to live?
If I can do this so can you. See yourself on the top of that hill and NEVER GIVE UP until you summit your hill.
